Here We Go

The date is set for the first parole hearing for Mark James Taylor, who murdered my son, Christopher Robin Hotchkiss, on March 21, 1996.  The hearing will take place July 24, 2012 at Avenal State Prison (California).  The proceedings will start at 10:30 AM.

I was visiting with my sisters in Seattle when the certified letter notice arrived in our mailbox at home.  I had been checking the website from Seattle and nothing was showing the schedule.  Getting a certified letter is always unsettling, and when my husband Gary told me about mine, I found it unsettling.  What was this about? It never occurred to me it would be the prison informing me of the date.  Once Gary retrieved the letter, the mystery was solved!

My daughter, Christina and my husband, Gary, along with my dear friend Jaimee, will be the support team.  I’ve decided to keep the group small.  Most “lifers” do not get released on their first parole.  I have been reassured that I should keep the letter writing and many people showing up to the hearing for later years when we may need stronger opposition.  We will go down the night before; it is a long trip from home and we need to be fresh for the long emotional day ahead of us.

For my part, I will be writing a victim impact statement.  I live with victim impact every day,  so writing it will be natural.  The impact does not haunt me today, but it is not far for me to reach in and remember the absolute devastation the murder of Christopher caused this family.  I did not know if I would ever smile again, laugh again or be able to fully participate in life again.  Now I know that the answer to all these is “YES!” But thinking about the hearing, I remember!

I do feel fortunate that, in spite of “a parent’s worst nightmare,”  I have a healthy and loving family with a positive outlook for our future.  As terrible as this trauma was–and sometimes still is for us–I know that Christopher wants us all to live and thrive.  To honor his short life, his life cut short; we are doing more than surviving his death; we are thriving.

As I share this experience with you all, I feel like I have a very widespread support network.  It gives me a peaceful sense of purpose for which  I am grateful to each and every one of you who take the time to read my stories.

Thank you.

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13 Responses to Here We Go

  1. Cheryl Dennett says:

    My Heart is always with you.

  2. Harvey Gould says:

    Your strength, your commitment to life, and your commitment to helping others continues to be an inspiration. I’ve said it before, and I say it again: you are one of my heroes.

  3. Christina says:

    Oh Radha. YES!
    Your strategy sounds really sound. You are not setting yourself into needless worrying, which I really admire. You do research, know what to expect, and act accordingly. I have a good feeling about this. Another very inspiring post.

  4. Julie Dietz says:

    Thinking of you with love and prayers!

  5. valerie a. o'donnell says:

    Radha, my thoughts are with you on this tough journey. I am sending you love and peace. Valerie

  6. Tom & Bern says:

    You have our Love.

  7. Tom & Bern says:

    We send our Love.

  8. Bernie says:

    You have our love,
    Tom&Bern

  9. Martha Simpson says:

    July 24th, 10:30 AM, I will be holding you in my heart.

  10. Ethel Seiderman says:

    In the journey of despair and deepest sadness, you made a decision that you had lived a good life and would continue to live a good life. Your work has been an act of devotion to him and together you have both touched and changed so many lives. Thanks for you in my life. Love xo Ethel

  11. Millie Amis says:

    Radha, you keep on going and going and going. You have tremendous strength. May all go the way you want it at the hearing. I will be thinking of you.
    Millie

  12. Rowena says:

    “Death is not extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because the dawn has come.” Rabindranath Tagore
    May you feel the warm light of your son’s lamp surrounding you with love on this most painful day. Strength be with you and yours.

  13. Sara Lahey says:

    I love you, Radha. I will be with you. Should you want or need support in anyway I will make myself available. *hugs*

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